Big sigh.
Things don't always go according to plan, do they?
Plan: Continue to put in the time at a job that was ok (at least I like the company!) while pursuing a more fufilling career in personal training and nutrition. And because I like the company I work for, and because I don't think I'd be super stoked about working at a gym, come up with all kinds of good ideas on how to incorporate personal training into the corporate world.
Reality: Receive a promotion. In an area in which I have no experience or proper training. Work old job and new while they look for a replacement. Finally get replacement. Start working hard at new job. Realize that using your brain at work is really tiring. Realize that coming home after learning and thinking and doing all day and then studying? Not so much with the happening. Oh yeah, and fit in training for marathon #2 and still try to have a life. And on top of all of this? I like the new job. I find it interesting and stimulating and full of career launching possibilities.
So, I need to let go. I still want to be a trainer. I still want to learn more about nutrition. I still want to bring these into the company I like working for. But right now? Right now I have a new job that I like and need to put some focus on. I let go of my 'certificate by end of summer' timeline. Now I need to let go of time constranits in general and learn when I can.
Plan 2: Start a kick butt blog full of healthy living type tips and advice. Follow a self imposed schedule and topic format. Stick with it.
Reality 2: Same as reality 1. Tired brain does not make a good format for informational blogging. And plus? I'm still learning. As in, I'm not a font of ready information waiting to spill out of my finger tips. But I don't know what direction to take instead.
Time to let go. No one told me to blog 5 times a week about these topics and these topics only. And with the rest of the internet out there and ready to spill it's knowledge to the world, I certainly don't need to be the #1 source of anything. I will blog when I have time and when I have something to say. And maybe a pattern will emerge and maybe something kick butt will come out of this. Or maybe I'll just have a collection of posts representative of my journey to Ness.
If I'm not talking to myself (fully aware that I most likely am) feel free to chime in with what you'd like to see/read about/learn about etc. I'll do my best to please!
But for now? I'm taking a breath, and letting go.
